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| So today, I had to go to the dentist. I think the reason why i hate going to the dentist (or any doctor) is that i am scared what they will find out. For me, When is comes to my health, - ignorance if bliss- I always worry about what they could find out. So the entire time as they were xraying my teeth and stuff. i was like "does that cavity look that big". "Is my tooth going to be ok"... "i wont need a root-canal, right?" Yeah... needless to say, i dont think they could forget me. I was pretty annoying. but i was soooo nervous... anyways... I knew that in needed to get my wisdom teeth out but.. i had not planned or even thought about getting the filling and the tooth pulled AT THE SAME TIME.. so. yeah the dentist talked me into it.. and im stuck here at home.. with a little pain. But nothing unbearable. cheers! | | |
| So, today there were three gay guys and a straight girl blaring the tom agnue song "Grace like Rain" (screaming at the top of thier lungs the lyrics)in Nick's SUV while driving in the rain in hicktown, Zephryhills. It was amazing. When nick said he had a favoritve song, i half expected it to be this song. It was amazing, i cried. (Well shed one tear at least) I dont know why God is allowing me to become close friends with these guys, but i know that something is going to happen. Whether now, or later in thier lives.... Something will happen.... I know it! I pray for it! But for now, I just love them! | | |
| Wow.. Its been too long. To much going on! Well, thanksgiving was ok. I dont know why but i cant really take the whole lets just get together for one day and then not anyother day, just because its "thanksgiving" and that what Americans do on thanksgiving... Yeah- anyways.. So on monday nights I help feed the Homeless in downtown tampa right around the church called "sacred Heart". its great I love chillin out and playin poker or 21 with the guys there. There are few guys that we ( ppl from Watermark) have come to know over the months. First, is a guy i like to call "Old School". He is a 74 yr. old man that lives out on te streets. He is the one that they call "paps". He gets the sleeping spot under the awning of the church. As far as i know, His son recently died and hes been on the streets since then. He is really content with just chillin there. i dont know why he is still there but.. Like most "true" homeless, He would rather be there than anywhere else.
The second guy is this gay guy named "Scott". He has become my greatest friend out there. We play cards and talk about work and stuff. He works for a parking garage downtown collecting money for cars and making sure nothing happens to the cars. This past Monday he told me that he found a place over in Clearwater that helps ppl get off the streets by helping them find jobs and giving them a temporary place to live till they can get on their feet. (We will know on Monday whether or not he got it.)
The next guy is a 56 yrs old burly fellow. They call him "Yogi". Yes that is yogi as in "Yogi the bear". He is a kind man. I dont know yet what hi story is but he tries to work but because of his age and weight he is limited to certain jobs. Oh, side note- Yogi LOVES new socks! LOL.
Anyways, When we met "Hershey", It was over a game of Skip-bo and he was talking all slang. I could barely understand him. Finally, after much interpretation, i finally could understand him. He made an impression on all of our minds. After talking with him for a while, a van pulled up and people came and dropped leftover pizzas off for the poeple to eat. Hershey got up, but after he saw some of the other guys gab the pizzas like "Vultures", he sat back down and said. "you know, we never go hungry out here. Someone always comes out here to give us food. God always provides for us. We never go hungry". Renee and Myself were amazed to hear him say that. As we began to listen more and more to Old School, and Scott and yogi we relizaed that they really dont go hungry and are just thankful for the company and the kindness that is being showed to them. I really hope somehow i can just show jesus to them without using the Jesus card. Anyways, Thats what has been going on lately. Oh.. Also ive been painting & Writing songs! | | |
| This is going to be a long one!
School good and bad!- THere is is this guy at school who says he is in the "nimhilism" or how ever you spell it. He always brings in these norwagean magizines about these metal heads burning down churches. Says satan is his pal. Loves the whole wicca sign and all that (fyi- he really just trying to convince himself that it is real- the stuff he is playing with is not really jsut fake) When i first met him, I told him that i loved Jesus Christ with all my heart and everything like that and he was like whoa and went off on all the " supposively" wrong things about the bible.. yada yada yada. So, amazingly (those who know how i love to debate) I really said nothing about those issues and just tried to show him love and "act" interested in the things that he liked and ask him question and stuff. Well, when we woudl start to talk abotu religion - becuase i knew it was a hot topic and was somethign he has "really" indeptly studied- i of course just tip-toed around everything not making any claims and stuff. I knew that if i just came right out and said all that i was thinking ( jesus is the only way- he loves you- yada yada yada) he would just shoot me down with some scripture taken out of context. So its been about 6 months of just trying to show him love and "accept" him for whoever he is ( becuase truly i really think thats what he feeds on- when people disagree it like does something to him- he just loves proving them wrong and yeah.. its kinda weird- its like the more you think he it a psycho the more he loves it) Well, this past like two weeks i was thinking about how should i be a better witness to him and all that..but... this week we kinda got into a politcal debate and i didnt back down.. (which i should have and i did beat myself up over that after i left) It was pretty bad ..... now he wrote this whole thing about how God is not prolife and all this other crap about christians.
Uh.. its like if God would only open his eyes so that he could see.. he would be such a great christian becase of his dedication. He is soooooooooooooo dedicated to degrading christians that ive often thought of nicknameing him paul. ( but he would knowwhat i woudl mean by that and condiser it an honor)
He calls me his " favortive christian". I dont know why.. Ive jsut tried to show christ's love to him. I wonder if anythign that i have said to him has been taken differently than how i said it.. i really wonder if i have compromised on isssues that should not be... | | |
| So yeah- buzy creating a website! Kewl Stuff! :) | | |
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